Over the weekend, I was "expecting" that h would have asked me out.
Friday we worked independently of each other, keeping in contact throughout the day. I was really hoping at the end of the day he would have asked me to do something. Into early evening, he texted me to remind me of his aunts bday. I was in the middle of hearing bad news and texted him to say that. He asked if I wanted to tell him. I said sure, let me call you later. I eventually called him to tell him the news, and then he stated what he was doing and that he just got in as he was just hanging out briefly with his guy friend, while he was waiting on someone else. Honestly, I felt jilted. I felt that he would have possibly asked me to hang out/watch TV, but something better came along.
We worked early on Saturday together, and he did ask if I wanted breakfast /coffee (we went to McD's.). I stated I would have preferred a better breakfast. He circled the area to see what was available, but we ended up at McD's. In McD's we were waiting, and we had just missed "breakfast", so I jokingly said he could make it up to me. He asked how? I stated maybe another breakfast at a real restaurant another time. He said thats why he was circling the area. We mostly discussed work stuff and other random things. Then we left and worked a little while longer. He called/texted a few times to discuss my nephew's situation (in coma in hospital). The last one around 12AM.
Me: Hi, Not sure if its gossip or not but X is awake
(an hour later)
H: Hope its true and he's ok
Me: (immediately) Me too. Did I wake you? Sorry, just sharing.
NO REPLY... even still and its almost 11am now.....
Yes, I was "expecting" and had my hopes up for more for Saturday night. I was wanting to go out for that "beer" that he has mentioned a few times now.
I wonder why he is so paralyzed from doing what he says he wants to do. This is not new behaviour, he was like this in our relationship too.
I really need to detach WAY MORE... I opened myself up and I keep hurting myself.
I was careful not to push or to manipulate a way that would suggest hanging out, but I was leaving myself available during conversations. I was not hanging up first, etc. Although on Saturday afternoon, I did say "time for me to go" first. And left with a smile. I was just open and available.
Saturday night I left myself open for a call for a date. He did not call by 6:30, I made other plans. Had a girls night in. 3 girls came over for dinner and wine. 2 of the 3 women are separating...so there was a bit of husband bashing going on... LOL
This sux
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Today: Off to church. Hoping to hang out with daughter for a bit this afternoon.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
