Don't know what to think

[T-boned]

Talked to my H the other day about the re-fi - I got approved and can sign papers next week but I need him to sign some things as well. When I called him to tell him, he was very cautious about it. Told him he didn't have to sign a Interspousal transfer of the deed right then , but he was still cautious. Anyway, during our conversation just hearing his voice made me miss him and my voice started to break up. He asked what was wrong and I told him this was very hard for me and I was dealing with a lot, ie the divorce paper work, the taxes, the loan and my elderly mom. Basically when we hung up he said, "I hope your day gets better."

I haven't been exercising the last week or so due to weather and my schedule - I sure notice a change in my attitude (for the worst) when this happens. So I texted him and told him sorry for breaking down, and cited my reason (no exercise). No response. OH well. So much for acting like I was happy, etc...I need to get out of this frame of mind. I'm not coping as well...

Finally got a run in today and feel much better. I hope to keep it up as I think it helps me deal with all this.

I know there is something good coming my way but it is so hard to see right now.