separated on a walk II

[paul19510]

journal; I had drinks with another hockey parent last night. that was nice. It was nice to practice being social as a single person again. We just enjoyed a pleasant conversation.

today is going well. interesting note W texted me to get capacity and type of oil and filter size to change the oil in her truck. Strange question to ask me (I think). I answered her question but found that my mind made several assumptions (all of them unneeded) as to why I got the question in the first place. After I got home from the grocery and was vacuuming the house, I just had to laugh at myself about it all.

Assumption 1: She's asking because she's going to do I herself, why didn't she get help from SS26 who lives with her and knows exactly what's needed...
Assumption 2: She's got a BF (laughing hard at how far my mind went over a simple question) who really doesn't know what he's doing, but she wants him to do the oil change for her...
Assumption 3: She's going to show up here and ask me to change it.

My mind is tired after all of those circus flips lol. (being silly to say so). its good to 'see' these things in the moment. I can't stop who I am, but in order to really change and grow, I think this type of activity is needed.

Also another step forward today on my personal journey. I was feeling irritated at some of the other people in the store while shopping. the would cut others off and stop in the middle of the isle and block it while they looked at the labels on the soup can or something....I just realized I was feeling this and took a breath and released it. I can remember feeling stressed when W ad I lived together. I know it wasn't healthy and I need to relax more.