I need to do more background reading as well, but it looks like you are at the point where you are looking in the mirror and seeing the real you. It hurts man....I know it does. But this is huge! You just took the red pill!
Most people never get to this point....they just blindly keep doing the same thing over and over without ever realizing their part in things. They blame others, make excuses, and then wonder why their relationships are hollow, broken.
So first, be thankful you are here....who you are is about to change. The beauty of it is you get to decide who that person is. Second, go easy on yourself. Forgive yourself. Realize you did the best you could with the tools you had. But where you go from here is totally up to you.
Originally Posted By: Spartan
So my advice is to stop thinking about your M right now. It's hard as hell to do but right now you have to focus on making you a better person and building a strong relationship with your kids because they will need you even more in a couple weeks.
Totally agree with this. It's one of those things that seems a little unnatural at first. But think of it this way....your M is your house. There are cracks in the walls, windows are broken, the whole damn thing looks like it's going to fall down. You can patch those walls, and replace those windows, but the crumbling continues.
The problem is, the foundation is broken...no matter what you do to the house, until that foundation is fixed, the house will continue to crumble. You my friend...you are the foundation. Put all your focus there first....fix that, and then when it's time to rebuild the house, it will stand strong.
