Barrybran IV - Three Years Forward, 30 Years Back

[Barrybran]

Despite it being 4:30am and not being able to go back to sleep, I feel better already. I'm tired and I'm going to feel it later but I decided to read more DR instead of staying in bed thinking. I'm at the right part of the book too. I'm up to the part about "pulling it all together" and whilst I haven't actually set goals or started a solution journal, it has reaffirmed that DB is working for myself (45 minutes of hurt instead of 4.5 hours or 4.5 weeks) and that I can get my marriage back on track, I just have to redefine it and stick to it.

I'm thinking I'll have to do some reviewing of my threads and communication with my wife. I genuinely can't recall a lot of things though I know my wife and I have discussed a lot and that we had that good period. I even have trouble remembering what made my relationship with my wife tick. In an ideal world, I'd skip town for a couple of days and really go over things in my mind but the real world beckons. I do need to make more of an effort to really review my relationship and my personality and commit things to paper so I can see what I'm doing instead of imagining it.

I can do this. I've done it once before without knowing about it and I've had success briefly knowing it. Work will be a slight inconvenience today but it will help me to keep busy and I have time to myself after work and tonight to think and read.