Discovering the buck stops here....

[mizjjd]

Hello Portia

And other interested parties.

I am not having a good day today. No huge reason. Did have a brief conversation with H last night.

H: "Why aren't you more responsive sexually?"
J: "Because you have a girlfriend. That takes the emotion out of sex for me, and without that love and intimacy I guess I'm not interested."
H: "I don't have a girlfriend."
J: "You have someone in your life you value more than me. Someone you have told me you are in love with. Someone you won't stop communicating with. Whatever label you prefer, all that adds up to a girlfriend to my perspective."
H: "You're ridiculous."

Pulls me in to spoon. After a few minutes I move away.
H: "Now what?"
J: "That's not working for me tonight."
H: "Fine. Bleep it all then."

This morning H was still mad at me.

And I don't know how I am. Very sad. The tears are back. I hate the tears. I am amazed at how H rationalizes his continuing R with OW. And I am dismayed.




And, true to exposure to insanity, I begin to wonder if I am the crazy one here. If I have the "wrong" idea about M. I suppose ultimately there is no wrong and right; its whatever the interested parties agree to. But I don't agree...

Sigh. Had to vent. And now lunch is over;back to work.

Take care DB world.

~Jaye~