Skimmed through your thread and will start following you as well. Need to give it a better read this afternoon but a few short things real quick.
Originally Posted By: OneDay
All I keeping asking myself WHY? WHY did I act that way? Why was it all about me? Why do I continue to act this way? But, I dont have an answer
Like pretty much every guy on here that I've read or talked to it's usually a combination of 2 things. (1) you were an ass and (2) you didn't know any better. It $ucks but it was what it was. The hardest step for me personally was realizing this and accepting it. Looks like you are at that point so you're taking the first step (which is the hardest so well done there). There's nothing you can do about it now so it's time to start moving forward and make sure it never happens again.
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Do I want to save my marriage? My Self, The Schiz thats not working With out a doubt. But HOW? I want to fix myself, but as for saving my M... ...I can't imagine that happening right now.
So my advice is to stop thinking about your M right now. It's hard as hell to do but right now you have to focus on making you a better person and building a strong relationship with your kids because they will need you even more in a couple weeks.
So how do you become a better person? Put other people first? Sacrifice without bitterness or regret. What are your top priorities for fixing you?
Also you need some serious GAL/ hobbies because you're about to have some free time. What are some productive things you want to do? Volunteer, work out, help a friend, etc...
Personality is who the world sees, character is who you are