I really need to detach. So after the little "haha" email I replied to H about some medical bills. Purely business except for the statement that our new insurance kind of [censored]. He did not reply at all. Maybe he thought it was getting to "normal." He is trying to prove his point that he is done. He has not talked to D12 since last week and that was via text and I don't think he's texted D15 in almost 3 weeks. I get him not talking to me, I don't understand that at all. I know he misses his girls. He must feel guilty.
On a positive note I went and bought a new couch yesterday. Of course I'm totally questioning if I made the right choice! Typical me. I hope when it is delivered I love it!
I wish I didn't miss him so much. I'm used to him being gone but not the no contact. I hope he doesn't think that my lack of contact with him is because I have accepted his decision and moving on. I am going to fight for my marriage and family.
J
Me-44 (45) H- 50 (51) M-'96
S-18(20)D-15(17)D-12(14)
BD Feb 2014 (he works overseas) home Oct(sep rooms) (EAs possible Pa's unconfirmed) insists wants D through July 2015 no more talk of D since
