Bright, There is absolutely nothing wrong w/having hope. You can have hope and still continue to move forward and if you want to leave the door ajar, by all means do so...but remember...it takes a long time for them to work up the never to either knock or push the door open completely.
Continue to work on you and enjoy the time you spend w/family and friends. Your life can't be put on hold waiting to see if he'll knock on that door. Life is far too short to wait around. If he truly wants back in, he will find a way to make his entrance known to you.
Enjoy your weekend.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
