Keeping the secret

[CallaghanClown]

Thanks Bklyn I'm reading that article.....wow, that man needs therapy!

Had a terrible sleep last night. H stayed over and he didn't sleep either....separate beds. When he woke he's started talking about his housemate is moving his girlfriend in. I asked what his plans were but he said he had no choice but to stay. I suspect he'll move in with OW very soon. Ouch, that stings.....but I've heard this is a good thing.....explain??? Give me hope.

I really don't feel detached today. Most of my anxiety is related to OW having contact with my kids....not losing H. But I'm worrying about the future and I need to think in the moment.

This just all feels like a mess.

In some ways I feel H getting closer to me but then I remember he has OW and that maybe he's being nice to me out of guilt/shame/cake eating......

He's just not the man I knew. He's so aggressive....in the way he talks, not towards me. Such an ego......He thinks himself such a big shot and then talks himself down as if he's stupid. I validate him, listen and praise when possible.....but I listened for so long last night I felt sick and had to go to bed early.