Heather, you don’t need to defend yourself on this board. You are doing great. I think people just want to warn you about the dating, because they don’t want you to get hurt.

I personally think that you are doing awesome handling everything life throws at you. You definitely deserve some fun, and only can determine what it means for you.

I think you are just a little overwhelmed with the recent exchange with Smokey and your upcoming trip, this is why you have all these emotions coming out. I get it. I had a small meltdown the other night, when I could not reach my GF and my sister, and I needed to talk to someone. So, I felt very lonely and pi$$ed at the same time.

It is understandable that you don’t wish Smokey a happy life. There are so many of us on this board who feel the same about our spouses. I guess it is part of the process. I’m just now starting to feel a little bit more sympathy for my H, and it might be because I’ve seen him last weekend and he doesn’t look happy.

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state