There's a huge measure of indifference in there too.
Indifference about his life. But, I love him and I always will. It's like loving someone who has Alzheimer's or something. The person you love is gone forever, but you still miss the person they were. And, I'm angry with the disease for causing so much pain.
But, I'm not putting my life on hold any longer. I put my life on hold for decades. I'm in no position to really get serious with anyone.
For me, maybe not for everyone else, FOR ME, healing involves letting people in and widening my world. It's been so narrow for so long. It had to be. But, things are changing.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
