I like the MeetUp idea. I may do that when I'm back from N.C.
Thanks Wonka. Love you.
And, guess what?
Sex does somehow seem to be a part of this. I'm not sure why?
Maybe because Smokey made it such a big deal in leaving.
I'm going to be just fine. I'm really not looking for anyone to save me anymore. I know I can earn the needed income. I do.
It's more about just asking for what I need. I asked the Forester to hold me. It felt nice. And, I'm ok if we don't see each other again. Weird. I asked for what I needed. Something I never could in my marriage. I could ask, but I rarely got it. I'm learning to ask.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
sounds like a girls night out is in order, if you ever come to Tennessee holler at me and we'll go out and have some fun! I do think you should flirt and be yourself. It gives you confidence and makes you feel better. This has weighed on your for years. I think it's only natural to have that anger, just don't let it consume you. I am new so I'm still learning, but many times i've said to myself "i hate you for doing this to me, to us" and been very angry. We're only human! For me, I come to these boards for venting and talking to others that know what i'm going through and it's a tremendous comfort. I for one am not offended and it's great you are becoming yourself, I think that is a necessary thing right? You are in control of you and that's it so it's ok to do what you feel is right, you're the only one you're accountable to (other than your kids) but you know what I mean. and your comment about your h - I couldn't agree more, I hope mine falls on his ass. I don't want him hurt too badly but you know, he's gotta hit his rock bottom and hopefully realize all the devastation he's caused. This is hard stuff, not for the weak - and you for one are very very strong!!
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
People, I'm telling you. There are like a million really nice men out there! Millions!!! And, they are like grown ups and handsome and fun!!! Who knew!!
And, there are like a million places to visit and fun places to see!! I can't wait to see them all.
And, I feel like a kid. Like a kid who just walked into like the best toy store EVER!!!
And, I've been trying to share some of it on here and I guess I just got frustrated because you guys all seem so PARENTAL!!
Ugh. Funsuckers.
LIFE IS FUN!! WHO KNEW???
I sure didn't. :-)
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
I think I want Smokey to die of smoke inhalation. Too much smoke. It would serve he and OW well. To die in a sea of smoke. Marjuana smoke. It would be great if it was in all the papers too because then his parents would have to face the reality. Their son is a stoner to the 10th degree.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
There's a huge measure of indifference in there too.
Indifference about his life. But, I love him and I always will. It's like loving someone who has Alzheimer's or something. The person you love is gone forever, but you still miss the person they were. And, I'm angry with the disease for causing so much pain.
But, I'm not putting my life on hold any longer. I put my life on hold for decades. I'm in no position to really get serious with anyone.
For me, maybe not for everyone else, FOR ME, healing involves letting people in and widening my world. It's been so narrow for so long. It had to be. But, things are changing.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
GM, I think it would hurt worse if YOU ended up with some Fabulous relationship with someone Fabulous and Wealthy and all that. We don't want the OW to end up with THAT!!
Seriously, we need to work on your ideas of revenge. LoL.
I see you on the yacht, make it YOUR yacht, with a man harem of beautiful guys and you pass your ex and OW in their little broken down rowboat.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
There's a huge measure of indifference in there too.
Indifference about his life. But, I love him and I always will.
Sweetie, from where I sit, it doesn't come across as indifferent. You're still emotionally invested in Smokey with your "rants" about him and his OW.
Indifference is not giving a flying fig about what he does or doesn't do.
Me? I am indifferent to my most recent ex-GF. We do talk about every 2 weeks. I am completely indifferent to the idea of her sleeping with 100 women or men. I don't feel one way or the other about her dating life or sex life. That is indifference.
Anger and love means you are still invested in the other person. See? Sure, anger and love come in different shades. Still makes you emotionally invested because they are the two opposites of on the emotion spectrum.
