I don't want all my thoughts of Skippy to go away. We did have some excellent times together. But I would like to start be able to think about him without immediately thinking of the more recent painful memories.
Out of the blue, I got a text from Skippy yesterday. Asking me how I felt about the situation in Russia (I have family there). It does seem strange when he drops me a line like it hasn't been weeks since I last heard from him. I have not had time to respond.
I was thinking about something, though and was wondering if anyone else had some thoughts. First of all, even if Skippy came back and professed undying love, I am not sure I want him back or in my life. While I have no expectations of him anymore, I wonder if I am not sending out a wrong message by continuing to answer his texts.
My feeling is that I am being polite, although that sometimes smacks of hypocrisy to me since I am still so angry at how he treated me. And that since I am not reading anything into the random texts, I can reply and my replies don't "mean" anything either.
I guess there is a part of me which really does not want him to think that everything's OK - look GF or new GF, everything is fine between us, I am not that bad, she is cool with everything.
Because I am not.
So, I am just going to reply, however he takes it is his business. But, I was wondering....
