I'm back again 4 years later

[praying_in_GA]

I feel like we need to step back and get to know one another again. We need to learn to like and love each other again. We need that spark back. I feel like a small part of him is willing to let that happen but he does not want to commit to it right now. He even said that he is not ready to give me an absolute yet.

In the same breath, I do not want to take his kind manner and easy interactions as more than they are. I do not want to get my hopes up and end up crushed again.