Same Song, Different Verse

[StilH2O]

We had our Tuesday evening dinner last night. Nothing big, just friendly conversation and catching up on the week as well as this upcoming weekend.

Our hometown high school boys are in the small school state basketball tournament, which starts Thursday. It is held about an hour away from where we live and every year that our school has qualified for the past several years (since our kids have been in high school) we have always made a mini vacation out of it.

D17 and some of her friends and I will be staying at the team hotel for the weekend, just hanging out, watching basketball, shopping and enjoying the time away from work and school. Unfortunately, S21 can't go due to college and work schedule. W at first said she was going to drive back and forth instead of staying but now her sister has her convinced to stay so they got their own room. I offered for them to stay in our room so they could save some money but I don't think she is comfortable with that even though I told her we didn't have to share a bed or anything. So, not sure how much time we'll spend together, but it' will be a good time with or without her.

The dinner conversation overall was very good. Nice hug and a polite kiss before we left. Following the advice I got, I did decide not to share my short-term relationship goals with her yet. Think I'm gonna wait a few weeks and see how/if things progress before taking that step.

Just a few more pages left in DR. Really good stuff in there. I hate to sound cold, but I'm almost glad she moved out, at least for now. It's been a lot easier detaching without her in the same bed/house even though we were more like roommates. I just found it hard to follow all the DB rules when she was that close.

She is out of town for work overnight tonight, which is generally pretty difficult for me to keep my mind from wandering since those occasions are when all the physical meetings occurred during her A, but I'm getting better at not worrying about what she's doing. I don't think anything is still going on but I've pretty much come to realize that my worrying is not going to change anything if she decides to go down that road again.

Anyway, still working on the things I need to work on for me and keeping a PMA. D17's first softball game is Monday and even though I'll be seeing W at most games, it will be something else to focus on. Sorry for the long-winded post but thanks for letting me vent.