No beating myself up here. I know it's easy to think of a new me at the moment but right now, I'm just going to focus on finding the right resources and trying to focus on how I speak to my wife. She's not interested in what I have to say or do right now (it's showing because she has NO idea when I work when my roster is in a prominent spot and she's organising the babysitter according to HER view of things) but I'll just go back to the drawing board and do what worked last time.
On the bright side, I stuck to my plan for yesterday. I was pretty happy with myself. I actually had to squeeze in time to rest before I went to work. Work was pretty good and it felt good to sit down at 9pm with nothing to do. Today has got off to an interesting start having been woken at 2:30am by my boss to go check the store as I live three minutes away and she lives half an hour away. I feel pretty good though.
Me: 31, W: 29 T: 4 M: 2 Kids: 3 (SS: 7, SD: 4, D: 3) Separated, still living together: Nov 2013 Separate bedrooms: Feb 2014 W working away; kids with me: Nov 2014