Just had a bad convo with W over the phone. She was bringing up splitting up money and my retirement, which caught me off guard. I thought I handled it ok, but was probably a little panicked, because I thought she didn't want anything, beyond alimony.
Anyways then she starts going into talking about her mom asking her over and over what is really going on. Her mom thinks there's an OM involved. My W asks me if that's what I think. I said yes (should I have just ignored the question? Idk). Anyways she doesn't say yes or no, which must mean yes I assume. She starts breaking down crying saying she's sorry she's ruined everything. I told her I understand that she is sorry and sad about it. This caught her off guard a little, as she was surprised that I validated her feelings. She goes into say I'm a good guy, she just doesn't know how to respect me the way I should be. Which just made me realize this thing really is probably over.
Then she starts going into how she's going to do her best to raise the kids with me that God would want. I haven't been bringing God lately into our conversations as I'm not trying to guilt her, but when she brings God up as somebody she has to please I was pretty much done. The convo had dragged on too long anyway. I told her I had to go to bed and I'd see her tomorrow.
Ugh. I just can't believe I'm getting divorced. I never thought something like this would happen.
