WANT TO COAST ON FLAT LAND

[Ambivalent]

Hi Making,

Quick synopsis... Jan came and during Epiphany, I had one! I'm moving forward, alone and with new goals.

I have gone completely dark, and am allowing him to have his affair and to be "single".

I have an attorney and there will be some paperwork, but I'm not filing for divorce. Pendente Lite.

I don't see myself married again, so why rush something and lose insurance?

I am dating, and enjoying it. I have not had sex, but have given good day kisses. It is no longer an odd feeling.

I dance and find this to be one of my greatest joys!

Almost ready for state exams... then the world is open!

I'm in a good place right now, I do cry every now and then. But never like before. I would like a companion with whom to share my passion for dancing. And yes... sex would be nice to enjoy !

I have surprised myself at how I'm now okay. Not only okay, but happy. I was always a happy person before, so it shouldn't surprise me, but for some reason it is!

I love my daughters and they will always be mine. I have NO feeling for the stranger that lives two hours away. He is someone I'd rather not know.

I have NO attraction for him, I am numb. I don't regret my marriage, for I got to have children and loved being a mom! I have met new people and the ones who have stuck by me are even more precious!

No bitterness, no anger, just pity and some sorrow. The death of a marriage is still a death.

I have a date with a man this Fri. evening. He and I have gone on a couple of dates. Text each other, and he now wants us to see more of each other.

I want someone who will share in my dancing, so that is why I have a dance date on Friday. He has chosen to pursue, and I'm choosing to be pursued! Hahaha!

We'll see where it goes, and I'll learn along the way. Still so much more for me to learn. Patience is one and confrontation is another.