Side Note: Has anyone else had this experience? As I get more and more detached from Smokey, I've realized how many good things we had going on in the relationship. It's weird. It's not that I want him back, but I'm able to see with some clarity how lucky we were in so many respects. I don't know many, if any, married friends who are really happy. We actually had a pretty marriage, aside from his damaged goods thing going on...
Yes, I’ve been having similar thoughts recently. After this past weekend when I’ve seen more of an “old” H, I realized that we actually had a very good M.
I completely agree with what Wonka posted. I was worried about how I looked all my life that I lost that special touch with inner self at some point. Then I became very clingy and jealous person. I’ve been doing a pretty good job on getting back to who I was when I met H. The only thing I still don’t know how to avoid to be attracted to the same kind of guy. I analyzed all my childhood issues and why I became clingy, but I still don’t know if I would be able to tell what actually attracts me to a guy. I’m afraid I’m going to repeat the pattern. So, this is something I’m still working on.
M:50 H:52 S28 (my S from previous marriage) M:17 + 3 BD: 06/12 S: 06/12 - H works in another state
