I'm in, wife's out

[trc2009]

I have to see my WAW. We have kids (young kids) and the one thing we agree on is the co-parenting approach. We actually can agree on a lot of things (kids, finances, schedules, etc.).

I'm really starting to wonder whether or not she's truly a WAW. The more time I spend in this forum and read stories, the less I really think she is truly "done" with our marriage. I read all of these other stories and think to myself how lucky I am right now because my wife isn't doing some of the things they're doing.

Honestly, after reading the MWD books, I'm starting to think it's more of an early mid-life crisis than a situation of a W.A.S. Sure, our marriage hasn't been perfect but it hasn't been this dreadful thing (and she's even said that she doesn't regret for a second getting married to me). If she truly walked away, she probably would have indicated that she was done by now.

I could be wrong, but I really don't see her making a decision about ending the marriage any time soon. And if you believe the "none of what she says, half of what you see," it's possible D isn't even an option for her. If it still is an option for her, she knows it won't be a quick thing. It would likely drag out well into 2015 because I won't pave the road for her in the event that's what she wants.

Regardless if she's a WAW or not, I will continue doing what I've been doing. W/ warmer weather on the horizon, I will have plenty to do. I do now, but most of my hobbies involve warm weather. I've done a decent job of GAL even with this terrible weather.

I don't know, a lot of rambling here. But I've now had time to really explore the stories here to compare/contrast with mine. My M could take a turn for the worse and maybe my wife is closer to D than I think.

I'll continue my 180's, keep working on my two goals that I've spelled out, and generally take care of myself until she indicates that she is ready to move forward.....TOGETHER. It may happen soon, it may never happen. But I will not sacrifice spending time with my kids.