There's another dead bishop on the landing...

[BklynMom]

I think going back to alanon would help you tremendously. Your relationship with your mother reminds me of my r with my mother. Your mother is not available.

In alanon I have found single mom friends that I can lean on instead of calling my mother or my sister who are generally not sympathetic.

I feel like a lot of what I miss with my xh is a partner not a lover. A lot of the partner conversations including financial and kid issues I talk through with my alanon friends. Like these boards it makes me feel less alone