You could learn a thing or two about sitting on your discomfort. I find it interesting that when you feel "rejected" by Smokey, you reach out for a text to send to the Forrester to get an ego boost from him that shows he "still" finds you attractive. Am I wrong here?
I do hope you do have some distraction method in place for when this happens. I find that when I am upset, I can feel myself strain for my mobile to reach out to Ms. Wonka or Cass. Then I distract myself with other activities until that "urge" passes. It is only a temporary thing and it usually gets better in the next day.
For me, Ms. Wonka and I recently texted this past Saturday/Sunday. Believe me, I WANNA continue this text-fest. But like the good ol' calm Wonka, I've put it out of my mind and wait for the next text from Ms. Wonka which will most probably happen in April.
Oh...and I wanted to come back to the comment about transferring the utilities over to your name. You are not alone in feeling suckerpunched by this so-called step toward splitting up stuff and onward to D. I'll never forget the day when Ms. Wonka told me that she's switched off the utilities over to me and I could barely say a word other than, "Thanks, I'll take care of it."
Guess what? I got through to the other side all in one piece.
