While at the vets getting medications for our geriatric dog, the doctor held up a pill and looked directly at W while saying: “I’m required to tell you that if there’s any chance that you could be pregnant, don’t touch this pill.”
I bit my tongue at the time, but couldn’t resist making a joke about it later when W and I were alone. “Oh, and by the way, if there is any chance you are pregnant, touching that pill will be the least of your worries!” (said in a humorous tone, with a big grin) W’s response: “Well, if I am then we know there’s a second coming.”
While discussing the recent concert W and my sister attended, W mentioned that MMF (millionaire man friend) offered to take W to see Phantom of the Opera. She then went on to say that she put the kibosh on that real quick because she figured I wouldn’t like it. As it is now, she only see's him once or twice a month along with GF, and is very open with me about it. I made no comment. Hey, if she’s policing herself then I have nothing to say about it. (except for when I'm quick enough to come up with a witty comment.)
Continuing my plan to ask for more, I asked W to massage my head while we were watching TV together one night. She did, and unlike the last time I asked, she actually put some effort into it. Afterwards I thanked her and said that it really means a lot to me that she did that. YMMV, don’t try this at home, kiddies!
Last night W walked into the room carrying our dog, all the while kissing and goo-gooing the heck out of her. When I made a playful comment (something about that being an awful lot of goo-goo talk going on) W said “She’s special”. A few moments later I stopped W when she was walking past me, and asked her to give me her hand. “Why? I don’t want to!” she said, but I insisted. “Just do it, give me your hand, I want to tell you something” Finally she reached out. I took her hand and told her she was special too!
Just little stuff I’m trying because the time seems right. I know for sure it’s not hurting things between us, and I need to change things up around here… For me. If she likes it, good. If not, oh well! We'll see what happens!
I REALLY doubt she’s going anywhere. And who could blame her? Me--->
OK, this one is for all you amateur and professional dream interpreters out there. Last night I drove W to the bus station. I was driving a forklift with a whole pallet of her stuff! W was by my side. No feelings other than it was just another project/errand like all the other ones we still do together. I was frustrated trying to get there on time, finding the proper place to unload, etc. Woke up and thought, Hmmmmm…
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
