Part 2-H moving out

[Georgiabelle]

Thanks for the kind words. I'm away from home and find my mind spinning. I hate it and wish thst would stop.

I guess what I'm struggling with is that I want to better. One thing I know I did repeatedly in my m was reject my husband. I didn't want to but I kept doing it. I hate that I did that because if loved him very much. I built up this wall of resentment. I would get upset because he would get so easily overwhelmed and I know it was his ongoing anxiety and depression, but I just wanted to fix him. I'm a fixer. I can no longer be a fixer. Even h when he said he had to leave said that he didn't know what was wrong with him, but it was his journey and he had to do it. I know our m had issues and I hurt him. But I do also know that he is going thru a profound crisis. Heck , even if we had sex every day when we were togethter, I think he would still be in crisis. I can't fix him. And I have to leave him alone.

Just talking out loud. Getting ready for a full day in meetings.