It's cold out and I felt the need to post.

[TL72*]

Thank you for posting Irma,
It stinks that there are so many of us going through the same sort of pain. I came here for the same reasons as you, as all of us. I guess it just helps to know you're not alone and to vent and to have someone else that understands. Trying to explain MLC to my family and friends, they just don't get it. They aren't in it and they haven't done the research and reading I have and anything I say comes off sounding sort of crazy or as an excuse or something. I find it best for me to come here where others know the same information. I feel the same way as you, if he were to ever come back (which I doubt) he would have to do a lot of changing. He's totally self absorbed right now and causing so much pain he doesn't even know about or care. Like you, I think the pain is too much to bear at times and I will have a hard time ever letting someone back in my life on that level. I pray that he finds his way back to the Lord, he's definitely not feeling it right now. I'm glad you posted, it sort of puts it in perspective for me that chances are, this will go on for years and I will never have that old life back. Trying to stay positive and know that the *new* life will be what I make it - a better one. I'll get there, just takes patience and trying to love myself instead of simmering in this anger and bitterness. I'm really trying to push that out. Take care and thanks again for posting. - Tina