It was a pretty good weekend - the kids didn't have school Friday so we had three days to just chill out. We ran a few errands and spent some time at the mall on Saturday, but for the most part we just hung out at home. My kids LOVED it. They haven't gotten to do that in ages, and last night they both bemoaned the fact that the weekend is over.
I've got a busy week and we are heading out of town this weekend, so I wouldn't mind another day of relaxing either!!
Before we leave, I need to finish up this financial info for my L. It's such a pain, trying to figure out how much I spend each month on 137 different categories. I really just hate this whole process and think it's so ridiculous that my H is willing to go through all this trouble and $$, rather than work on the M.
My H has sent me two reasonably pleasant texts, so I think/hope that he is planning to leave the contentious stuff to the lawyers and try to make things pleasant when he interacts with me.
If I am being honest, though, it makes me a little bit nervous. When he is acting like a jerk, it is easier for me to detach, I think. When he is nice, it starts to feel like he's my old H, and I worry that being friendly with one another will suck me right back in and put me right back on that roller coaster. I know I won't let his behavior in either direction affect how the legal process plays out, but I do worry that I will start to doubt myself again, because when he acts all charming and nice, I sometimes start to believe his BS about what a great guy he is and wonder if I'm really just mean and a bitch.
Really, I think that I just need to remember that he has chosen to use our kids as a pawn, and that should take care of any of that, right?? Grrr.
me: 44 XH: 42 M 11 years D10 and S8 Bomb drop 9/27/13 D final 7/1/14
