Reaching out for support and advice 3

[bluesgal]

H visited the kids yesterday for the first time since Tuesday. His visit was a rollercoaster of emotions for me. I have a hard time with acting 'as if' around him lately. I don't like who he's become and I've brewed up some intense anger lately about the torture he's putting his family through.

Over the course of the day, he made a few off handed remarks blaming me for his severed relationship with his parents and made a couple of sarcastic smirks when I said something he didn't agree with.

I left with D for a long time during his visit to steer clear of him. It was her request-she didn't want to be around him. I guess she hasn't been responding to his occas texts, either. It's very obvious he's still blaming me for everything-including his relationship with her.

I could scream. I know-ignore, leave, GAL. But it is SO incredibly hurtful to have your H so convinced that you're pure evil and a horrible person.

I joined a bookclub with girlfriends this month. I have avoided it for years because I was too busy. Not any more. My GAL is awesome. I just wish my H would warm up to me and my family wasn't breaking apart more and more by the day.

He says he is miserable and has a knot in his stomach everyday.