I think today I have officially surrended. I am struggling with acceptance of this situation and letting go of my wife. I don't think there is a chance of R. She is so closed to the idea.
The vacillating back and forth between the hope and the letting go/acceptance of divorce is killing me. I am not sure if it is possible to have both at the same time. But if it is, I don't seem to have the capacity to do it.
me 41 w43 married 20 years BD 10/10/13 ILYBNILWY.... 4 kids, 21,18,8,6
