tonight I emailed again to ask for my car key and the check for the utilities he owes me. he responded that he was looking for a remote to his cd player. I found it and responded asking him when he wanted to make the exchange. he said tomorrow (monday) after work. I suggested meeting at the kroger parking lot so he doesn't have to come to the house. I didn't want him riling up the dogs or coming inside i guess. he said ok. it amazes me that this person was my best friend, lover, everything for 17 years and doesn't ask how I am, expresses zero concern, I just get angry and hurt and I know that's so dumb. Praying for strength and to take the anger away. Just venting because I have to see him tomorrow and his cold heartedness is painful. Now that he's gone from the house though, at least i'm not in limbo anymore, not walking on eggshells, going to become a virgin again hahah. Going to try and get a positive attitude. Was just a bad day but I did tape up to paint and moved pictures around and cleaned the bathrooms. small changes! going to try and go out at least one day each weekend to keep my mind off of it. learning patience.
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
