It's okay. No 2x4's from me. You are going to have ups and downs for quite some time. Feel the pain, allow it to wash over you and then release it.
None of us thought we would be here, but you have to remember...your marriage isn't the problem. The problems are his and his alone. Every marriage has ups and downs and most things are correctable. Unfortunately w/the crisis person, they don't see things that way because they are operating on emotions, not rational thinking.
Please be gentle w/yourself. I do hope that getting away will give you a little bit of relief and hopefully you'll feel much better by the time you get to your destination.
Travel safely.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
