own buz 23:mediation to reconcilliation, PATIENCE!

[makingmagic]

Journalling:

Went into work today. H assumed and purchased coffee for us. Therefore, I hopped in his vehicle. We sat and drank. He stated that he ran into a female friend that works occassionally for us. She mentioned her moms house will be going up for sale. He mentioned it might be a suggestion for a place for me, to save real estate fees.... not sure what he is thinking this for? I would need to know my financial situation first before I consider a new purchase.

We then worked on shovelling the ice around our vehicles. I hurt myself. He made a comment along the lines that he had wine to offer. It didn't make sense. We got the vehicle out of the ice, then said our quick "byes".

Yes, my expecations were up. I was hoping he would somehow make an offering of getting together.

A few hours later, I get a text:

H: Good team work getting the vehicle out... hope your hand is feeling better... have a good nite.

Me: (immediately) Hi. its actaully really sore. Tx for asking.

an hour or so later

H: Red wine from client may help... well, at least we got the vehicle out of the ice.

Me: (wasn't sure I should reply. He wasn't asking a question but didn't want to be rude and not respond ...so an hour later)...

Note: The other day when the client first gave one bottle of wine, he made the reference that he would like to try it too. Likely figuring that I would jump on that and invite him.

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Hi PM... I will wait for your return.

When you suggest that she doesn't exist, does that mean that my boundary is void of her too? I don't think you are suggesting that. I did not think of her this evening. Actually I kinda don't think much of her anyway. But, I will try to remove her completely from my life. I also try not to think about him. But then oddly, thats when I receive a random text. Happened twice tonight! No expectations = possible surprizes.