DXW - I went to reply on your thread but there's no reply option on it anymore for some reason. I don't remember what I wanted to say now either lol. Just when I think I have a grasp on this it gets back in my head and stirs things around. Then I re-read a lot of the posts here and that helps, acceptance is my goal. It's hard to come to terms with the whole idea that this could take years. Yes I know I will be ok, just don't think I can wait that long. Some days I think yes and others I'm like eff it. He's certainly not waiting for me lol. time it takes time. one day at a time. Tomorrow is grocery shopping, painting the ceiling. learning to love myself. oh I went through that whole blaming myself thing but I did figure out quickly that this was not me, just him blaming me for all of it and saying that this was not his home and trying to hurt me with words. i know the real story. hoping one day he remembers it.
Me - 42 exH - 56 Married 10.5 years Together 17 bomb dropped 1/6/14 signed papers 2/4/14 H moved out 2/22/14 D final 4/4/14 Dropped the rope 5/17/14 2 cats, 2 dogs
