Thanks guys. I feel better and this was very different in terms of how I FELT around Smokey. I felt some sad, some rejection...but the key word here is SOME. I wasn't overwhelmed by ANY single feeling. There was moment of...how could he NOT WANT ME??? But, it was followed by...wow, he really hasn't changed. If his tantrum yesterday was because his parents yelled "Jump!" Then, he is the same ol Smokey and that's not even close to the man I want in my life. I deserve someone who can feel good in his own skin.
Just some thoughts. But still sad he couldn't fight to be/or maybe is unable to be a partner to such a fab woman like me.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
