H moving out tomorrow

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TL, going dark, the way I understand it, doesn't mean you can't communicate about 'business' items like getting bills paid, having your car key, or getting tax info - I had to do this just recently. I think it just involves not contacting him first about 'non-timely' matters, and not engaging in casual conversation or emails. Keep it short and to the point.

I reluctantly called my H yesterday (I've been as dark as possible for a while now) to tell him I had the house appraised that day - I thought calling was good since it is a big step. Wish I had just emailed him - it upsets me to talk to him. I kept it short on my end and when I tried to end the conversation, he started asking me about work...blah, blah, blah. All I wanted was to hang up! And when I did, I cried. I loved hearing his voice but was sad his 'happy' attitude wasn't because he was talking to me. It's just difficult! But a few minutes later I got busy with something else and tried to divert my mind. You'll get lots of practice doing that....

So glad to hear you went out with a friend last night! It really helps even though some times you just don't feel like it. Do it anyway. Try to say 'Yes' to anything friends or family ask you to do, again, even if you don't feel like it.

Good move to see the doctor. And isn't it crazy just how many people you are beginning to meet that are either going thru this or have gone thru it? It amazes me, but saddens me too that there is so much hurt going on out in the world due to people and their relationships with other people. Guess it's just the human condition because I think this has been going on since people have been interacting. On a more positive note, most everyone I know or who I've talked to about this (both male and female) say it does get better - you just have to make sure you take care of yourself, and it seems you are on that path.

Yes, move forward but don't beat yourself up for going a couple steps back - it's going to happen - just keep the forward progress no matter how slow it goes. I, and all the others are here for you!! You're doing great!

Have a good day today, and be good to yourself.

I'll check back soon.