H moving out tomorrow

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wow thank you so much for your responses, that really warmed my heart this morning!!
DXW-i'm sorry your daughter was sick, that's so lame he didn't even tell you - just wow. How can they become such strangers?

Tboned - your words really touched me, thank you so much for taking the time to write. These responses are so helpful. I haven't screamed in the car yet, but I did scream in the shower.

I went dark and had not heard from him all week but last night I emailed him the bills due and asked if he had my car key. I hate that I had to do that but there was no chit chat involved. He responded via email and said "yes I found it the other day" meaning my car key. So now i'm like "and?? will you mail it or what?" I don't want to email him again. I will give it a few days and respond that perhaps he can mail it to me with the check for his half of the bills (utilities from before he moved out).
On a positive note - I'm GAL!!!! I went out for the first time in forever with a girlfriend last night. We went to see a band play locally and it was FUN. We mostly people watched and we were both scared to even go but after awhile it was just about us and enjoying some time out for awhile. It was a good distraction!
Yesterday I went to the doctor as part of my "take care of me" plan for my physical. I decided to ask her for the list of counselors and she asked "sure I have one, are you feeling depressed?" OMG, I started CRYING in the doctors office!!! I had not cried since last Saturday when he moved out. I was so embarrassed but would you believe my doctor told me the SAME thing happened to her, she said her husband left her 3 months ago and bought a red porsche and a condo and had a new gf. He left with only his clothes. She hugged me and I felt better even though I knew she was suffering too. Unbelievable, it's just hard to wrap your mind around it some times. I'm trying trying not to get too absorbed in any anger or resentment, and that's difficult. Thinking about joining church, I found one close by that seems it might be a good fit. I think maybe next Sunday. One week down alone! Going to do some things around the house today and prep to paint! Must move forward as if he's never coming back. Thanks again you guys for helping me through this, it is definitely a comfort to know you're not alone.