WAW Said She's Done-pt.4- What Happened?

[OneDay]

Thanks nit. I've been trying to detach and GAL. Somedays I feel great and other absolutely horrible about what's happening.

The thing is our first mediation is quickly approaching. If everything gets settled in mediation we could be divorced in a month or so. This marathon has a time limit and I cannot stop that. I know there is always a chance for R after a D, but I'm not sure I can hold out that long. I don't know how some of you guys do it for as long as you have. I feel like I'm playing the fool by letting her run around with OM.

I know it's been said before but this is not the women I once knew. She looks the same, has the same voice, but is a different person now. I'm beginning to wonder If I even like this new person.

I'm so confused about what to do. I'm seriously contiplating telling her she needs to move out. My mind is telling me it will be easier without her here. That I will be able to move on.