Working on Divorce Busting every Day!

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Wow -2 apologies in one day. This from a man who I can't remember the last time he apologized. Is this another side of the WAS they start apologizing. Not for leaving but actually accepting blame for other issues? A big issue in our marriage was that I literally became a doormat. My first instinct would be to think what made him happy and just keep quiet, so we literally NEVER argued Ever. It was hard to argue with an attorney and I would just give him the silent treatment or do what I wanted. One of my 180s has been to tell him exactly how I feel. In my mind I don't have to worry about him leaving, he's already left. (I don't mean begging him to come back) Just stating facts or I don't like this I like this etc. We need to work this out regarding X issue in the divorce. I truly think I may have been depressed or had Post Partum Depression for 6 years. Is that possible? It's like getting my tubes tied completely changed my personality back? Is that possible? I gained weight, stopped dressing nice, Gave my all to my kids and the farm.
Now I'm in better shape than ever. Going back and doing activities such as trying indoor rock climbing for the first time next Sunday. When I don't have the kids and I'm not working trying to get out of my comfort zone and get a life.
Before I got married I had traveled to 32 countries, taught overseas. Bungee jumped in Africa, Got held up by guards in a bus in Mexico. Hugged a tiger in Thailand and then I became this little mouse. That was so not me. I do feel like I'm getting myself back.
ALL of my friends have commented that they feel like they have their friend back. They said over the past few years I seemed so lost.