I'm in, wife's out

[trc2009]

It's definitely hard not to "believe" that she's still leaning toward a D. Things have definitely been different since she told me that on Sunday but not necessarily in a bad way. Things just seem more "normal" between us when we talk. We are still separated and when we do see each other it isn't often. I'm not going to see her until Sunday (she knows I'm going to a basketball game tonight and heading out of town to see my brother on Saturday). We'll talk on the phone when I call to say goodnight to the kids but that's about it. Part of me would LOVE to bring up the status of the separation on Sunday and my God will it be tempting.

BUT......it all comes back to whether or not she REALLY wants to end the separation and have us both under the same roof. And it's pretty much implied that she has to be the one to suggest it am I right? I've been racking my brain of what to say if she brings up how I'm feeling about the separation again. I don't want to seem to eager and have it blow up in my face.

The problem is with her, she has a hard time making concrete decisions. Especially BIG concrete decisions that cannot be reversed. "I don't care" and "whatever you think is best" have been two of her favorite sayings since we met. Part of me truly thinks that she would like to try to get things back to normal and we can see how things progress from there. I don't think D is imminent in her mind, but she can't rule it completely out either.

Obviously if we did end the separation and start peicing, there is still SO much work to be done. I would still have to stick to my two goals and continue the work I've done so far (although scale back the 180's a bit).