Long time reader - first time writer

[paul19510]

It feels like she just wants me to be the one that quits - not sure if I will ever get to that point. Guess I'll know it when or if I do.

Boy this hit right at home with me. I have felt this on and off for the past years that I think we put our relationship in autopilot. Even now, I feel a bit trapped by this. Something like a damned if you don't, damned if you do. If you do, then it's a self-fulfilling prophecy. If you don't, then you are to blame for the sitch, because she told you that she wants out, but she won't do it herself (leave the house I mean).

I have no bits of wisdom to give, just dealing with this on a day-by-day basis. I'm trying to detach for now. We'll see how it goes...

I get/got the same stuff from W. By the time I filed it was rewll "suicide by cop" if you've ever heard thst phrase when somebody points a gun at s cop knowing their gonna get shot b/c they csnt kill themselves...