still hopeful... no matter where life takes me

[juliegayle]

Thanks Georgiabelle. You are right it was an a#/ thing to say but you know what? It didn't really bother me. I posted it as an illustration of how far from normal this man has become.

This is going to sound weird but I actually felt empowered being there by myself with s. For weeks I have been thinking that being a single mom su@ks. And in a lot of ways it does. But now I know I can do it. I can handle the hard, scary, "Grown up" Stuff. The stuff that H is running away from.

I think in his own way that s is starting to realize h limitations. ( to borrow a phrase from Melissa) once we got to hospital he didn't ask for h at all. Last night he showed up in my room in middle of night wirh his pillow and blanket. He asked where daddy was. I told him he was sleeping in other room and he could go see him. He said no I only want you. I hope h doesn't damage that relationship beyond repair.