H moving out tomorrow

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Hi TL,just finished the two pages of your thread. I think you are doing amazingly well for the timeline of events you have experienced. You can see by mine that it has been almost a year since the BD on me . . and he just filed for D the beginning of Feb. And I still go through what you are describing, just not as much any more.

I also found all along that being alone with no one to share those things you used to share with not only your husband but best friend are some of the hardest times. That and crawling into bed alone at night. Ya, I don't miss the snoring either ( I can finally stay in my own bed)but there are times I would trade it to have him home and well. That's what ear plugs are for. <chuckle>

Yes, it will get easier later not to look for a text or missed phone call, so don't beat yourself up for wanting that right now. Your wounds are all still fresh. Yes, it does feel like a part of you was just ripped away, like some prehistoric surgery. Do all the crying you can when appropriate (not at work while you're on the phone or in a meeting,,,,), feel the hurt and work through it. Getting a reference to a counselor is a GREAT thing.


Yes, amazing how so many of the other posts here read as though you wrote it yourself - like you could sign your name to so many of them.

Stay as strong as you can (you will get stronger), feel all the emotions, cry, spend lots of time with your friends and if you're lucky, family, take comfort in them, and take comfort in your animals - they know something's up with you and will be there unconditionally (unlike some other 'animals' you know - you get my meaning,.,).

TL, I hope to come back soon and visit. Just know I, along with so many other people who are reading or who have read your posts but haven't answered, are here for you in soooo many ways.

Oh, how I wish you didn't have to go through this. But you've come to the right spot. You will get so much great advice and friendship here.


Love and hugs, my friend. Hang in there . . .