I'm trying to look at this as a learning experience. I want to learn how to date, how to sift through qualities in other people to find a person who really fits for me. I feel like I'm 15 years old again and have no clue how to do all of this.

Somehow, I got this idea, a belief really about myself, that I would never be able to attract and keep a really quality man. I need to work through that. I want to push myself through that belief and see that you can actually have fun with someone and not be there EVERYTHING.

I, actually, think the forester is perfect to practice on simply because he doesn't want any commitment.

I also think it's interesting, that once again, I picked someone who has a history of substance abuse. What is it that I need to work on here?

I didn't realize there is a statutory three days.

I feel good. I didn't realize there were so many men out there!! And, a lot of them are really nice guys.

See, I had this very narrow view of relationships, in part thanks to my mother, all very Cinderella and fantasy and full of fairy godmothers and your one true love and soulmates. And, when I fall for someone, I seem to go to that place again. I, very well, may get hurt with the forester, but I'm cool with it because I need to grow up from this fantasy of men being Prince Charming.

And, how come, I find the guys how have problems with alcohol and other drugs and I see them as Prince Charming?

"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man

“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson