P.S. The dissolution reality felt a lot like the BD time. It was a reminder of how far I had come--reminded me of when I couldn't sleep for months and waking up at 3 a.m. was the norm. I went back to sleeping on the couch for a few nights while I felt the dissolution reality feelings. That's my M.O. when in deep grief.
It will be ok.
"You know, it's times like these when I realize what a superhero I am." Tony Stark/Iron Man
“Focus on what you can do, then do it with all your heart.” Lois Wilson
