Chinks in the Armor & still Standing on that Hill

[Pudmuddle]

Well, here is what happened recently.

I approached H about getting his name off of our joint account, since he has his own account, and also getting my phone off the phone bill. He has had me locked out of that since I discovered OP texts back in June.

We had a great weekend, he was polite, and even asked me to watch a movie with him, my Son was even gone from the house for awhile so my H had plenty of time to talk with me about anything, but didn't.

Then Sunday night, My h walked into my room and told me 'Remember how you said you wouldn't go see the mediator right now and I should just do what I wanted to do? Well you are going to get served papers tomorrow.'

I said 'Well why can't you just give them to me yourself.' He says 'I can do that.'

I didn't even feel anything when he said that. The land of MLC Crazy.

The following day: He just handed me the paperwork, and right when our son was behind us. Sure, son didn't know what it was, but I just glared at H and told him that was REALLY tacky to do that right before S's bday weekend. I also told him 'Did you know you can't serve me yourself in the state of Colorado?' He just looked at me.

I'm ready for it to be over. Just want him out of this house. Blech.

Update:

Since then I have gotten great advice on Colorado family law and where to look for mediators or lawyers. I have been looking and researching but haven't done anything yet.

I wasn't able to sleep the past few nights, so I am mentally and physically exhausted. I found myself bursting into tears for very short spurts and then being done crying. I am realizing the finality of my marriage. So I am ok not doing anything abrupt right now as I know I really need to process these feelings.

I want to get through my S's bday this weekend and then he and I are taking a short trip to Reno for my niece's wedding. It will be just he and I as H has never mentioned wanting to go and seems to be pushing for us to go without him.

I hope when I come back all the furniture isn't gone. Eh, but then I would have some peace and comfortableness in my own home without H there. Ugh. I am just weary of all this emotional turmoil all the time.

Hope you all are doing well.