own buz 23:mediation to reconcilliation, PATIENCE!

[makingmagic]

Good morning GM... I'm not quite sure how writing down/journalling what happened, is considered obsessive. Would you explain?

As I was reviewing it in my head (agree to analyzing), which is why I thought putting it down would be better to see it. I wrote what HE was thinking, so that I will KNOW, and not mindread more or less into it.

Back to basics... focus back on to me.

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Back to holding true to self. Having self value.... I am thinking that whatever he is or isn't doing, isn't of good enough value to me ATM... its still scraps. I truly appreciate and am happy to finally be recieving his efforts/baby steps but...As long as he is entertaining OW in the background, I feel I am a fool to "play" & have coffee time/talks, etc..... is this a good mind set?....or do I have it wrong? am I at the point where a good DB'er "listens" to the MLC open up (STFU, listen, validate, do not offer suggestions...nothing)... or am I at the point where HE needs to do the work to get ME back?

Yes...the MLC is about HIM, but MY journey is about me now too, isn't it?

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Back to me ~ DD and I hung out last night, I put my "work" away and we watched TV. She then reminded me of the concert... which was supposed to be today, but she got the dates mixed up...its tomorrow. I was really looking forward to it being today...darn! Maybe, today I will go buy a mac air/book...whatev.... We need to use up some company $$$.

Keeping the focus on my self-value.

As Madonna sings "don't go for 2nd best baby, put your love to the test... make him express himself, baby, then you know your love is real"