H moving out tomorrow

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Thanks CW,
I really appreciate you responding to my posts! It is so nice to just not be alone.
For GAL I have gone out to lunch with girlfriends 2 Saturday's in a row and I think we're going out Friday or Saturday night. That is new for me, I never go out really. I'm exercising and trying to eat healthy - since the BD I lost weight of course because I lost my appetite. I'm happy with that for sure, but not for the reason. I'm considering going to church which I've never done since I was a child. Going alone is a little scary for me, but it would be good for me. I've already separated all the accounts, he's off my checking and savings and my 401k is mine (it's in the divorce papers). The only thing left is to refi the house in my name only and I have a year to do so according to the papers. That's when I get angry that he basically abandoned me with this house we bought together and 6 pets. Now he can go buy expensive new stereo equipment and i'm stuck paying this huge mortgage on my own and caring for the animals. I love my animals but you know as a single person I never would have had 6, vet care is expensive. Then I stop having a pity party and think it is what it is, just take care of it. Just re-worked my budget. I'll get a 2nd job if I have to. I always handled the financials so you can believe I separated those out rather quickly. This weekend i'm going to do a deep cleaning on his bathroom that is now empty and change things up, also start painting and shopping for that new couch (mom is gifting me one). I was thinking that too about the divorce - just a paper. The old marriage is over, I threw out every picture of us and the wedding album and whatever else reminded me of it. It's over for good - if he were to ever wake up from this it would be a new relationship - clean slate. My thoughts drift to him since it is so new and thinking that he may be with OW but even that I can forgive. I can't predict the future so I just have to work through this and yes that means taking care of myself. I go to the dr on Friday for yearly physical and will ask for a referral for counseling. I find myself checking my phone to see if he texted or called. So lame. I'm doing it less and less though. I know this is a long journey and along the way maybe i'll find that I don't want him after all. OH and the other thing i'm doing is quitting smoking. I quit years ago but when he dropped the bomb... I picked it right up. Now my body is telling me to quit so I will be attempting that pretty quickly. Thank you for your words of encouragement. Still no contact.