separated on a walk II

[paul19510]

Time for a new thread.
Journal. Today is my birthday. I wa s going to go to the gym before heading to the client. My present to myself was an extra 30 minutes rest today instead. I am tired. I got home late from hockey and life has been busy. I paid the L this week and so the process will progress now.

Looking back at it I realze that my timeline is not complete. W and I stood in the kitchen after a long long autumn of figbting..really longer than that even on thanksgiving eve 2012 and admitted to ourselves and each other that we weren't sure thst we would stay married. Db coaching and work continued throughout the coming

year and ended with the timeline on my signature line. This process is wearing on me.I tired. That's ok to feel. I am feeling less attached today. I am making more plans for a future thst does not inlcude W.

There werwe're feelings of real dislike for her yesterday. I just let them move thru me. I don't like the person she is or has become. Its not nice. She hurt my kids and she hurt me. I don't want her around. For the last couple of days that has replaced sadness. We will see what comes next.

My kids are tsking me to dinner tonigbt. I am excited. It will be a simple quiet place..D16 is still suffering from post concussion symdrome. Lights and noise like we might get at a bigger place like outback. Yummmm.....aren't going to help her feel good.

Have a wonderful day all. I will.