I need all the help i can get

[Barrybran]

Well, yeah, you stuffed that one up. Chin up though. You're emotional and you'll make mistakes. The important thing is to go back to the rules and figure out which ones you broke. You'll be more aware of those next time.

You've seen some positives. They'll come back. It'll be harder but they'll come back. As you'll hear many times, let it go, dust yourself off and re-read and recommit to the rules.