Hmmm... seems as though there are several different POV's .. not all just the one "same" one. THIS!!! is what I see, and this is like the personal conflictions within my head.
Thanks for all the sides of this... if anyone else wants to add thier opinion... I'd appreciate it.
Like Bond says.. ultimately I do have to make these decisions on my own... its not like I will get to keep all of you in this relationship (if it happens) or if not, the next one.
Bond ~ Yes, he TOLD me my calming kisses worked to help him with his pains. (I would SOOOOO love to reach out) BUT... do I ACT on that ... or do I need to HEAR he has made a decision first? I believe that saying today that I am still wanting to "listen" to him.. re-opened the door, inspite of last nights text I was still standing behind too.
Portia, Ken, GM ~ you make valid points... I would hope he was not manipulative, but... just in case he is. I must keep my eyes open. As Portia stated he is all talk, no action, whine, blah blah blah. Although, he seems sincere (like the h I know) and is not looking for a booty call. Also, my 50% of the business would not be mixed in with R talks. I am not stupid or lovestruck, I will not be making poor business decisions.
GM ~ we didn't get married because he has a fear of legal/financial commitment. With that said, he was very committed within our 20 years. Faithful, loyal, failed attempted pregnancy with me for many years, father figure to DD, business proposals, he was committed in my mind. The mediator touched on this commitment phobia and he admitted it and said he'd like to speak to a counceller about it
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
